in life, what i think is only about fun, joy, laughter and peace. yet do i know that there are still many other things to learn from, from failures, betrayers, love, friendship and so on, i never treat theses seriously which afterwards let me into alot of troubles, and many of them are unsolve and unforgivable. How can i unlock the voice within me, the angle who is guiding me, bring me off, all these troubles, unhappiness and sorrows. Everything that is done, has a meanin behind it, to avoid it, all you nid is to trust. i want to be happy but i just can't. i am sick of trying, really sick, pretending to be smilin, hurts me even more ... I din not treasure what is there for me, what is infront of me, all i did was to walk pass all these chances. My heart is bleedin, you can't see, whatever i do seemed wrong to you, you dun even trust me in the first place, why did you have to do this to hurt me? what in the world did i do to have this punishment? i failed to be who i really am, i lost trust and faith, i lost everythin, have you ever spare a thought for me? all you care is your friends. who am i to you? dun ask me to xxxxx when you dun wan to be serious! dun toy with my feelings!!!! i am not cold-blooded. i got feelings! you sucks... seriously you sucks. dun ever let me see you again... its is all over! PLAYBOY!
