do i have the time?

HAPPY BDAE MICHELLE CHOY ! (:

I regretted not knowin eu earlier... This is the last year... soon eu would leave this school. i will miss eu! (: i promise.

Thanks for the concern, eu given to me when i was moody/sick/sad/unhappy/whatever. eu thought me alot yea. sometimes when i was abt to gv up, eu gv me the spirit to continue on. HOWEVER, times flies, it has been a year i knew eu, a blink of eyes, eu would choose eur own path to other school. but i just want eu to know, that i will always be eur best friend foreverno matter what other ppl say abt eu, i dun care cox i trust eu. (: ILOVEYOU! it sounded very .... bt i never regretted hvin eu as my friend. Never regretted letting my secrets out to eu. I wanna let eu noe, I WLD ALWAYS BE THERE FOR EU, COX EU ARE MY BEST FRIEND! seriously, thanks to eu, i noe what is life. (: dun get the wrong idea arh. i just duno how phrase. hehes. my english bad marrhs. hahas. hope eu really read, cox i use my heart to type and good luck, all the best for eur O levels. (: scorce super well okay? (:





I suddenly feel very scared. the feelin of bein alone. the feelin of bein left out. i duno why. but everytime i close my eyes, i wld picture myself cryin for help. i cnt see any light. i am afraud. the feelin of bein alone. my greatest fear. dun leave me. cox no one care... the smile everytime on my face is so forceful, but i am tired. really, the things and effort, the cheerful me. tired am i. i am! very tired. givin me headaches when ppl kip buggin me abt friendship, relationship. not that i dun wan them to talk abt it. is jus that, it is too much. too much too much. too much for me to handle it. all alone. alone. i love the night time, where i wld sit up on my bed, looked out of the window. thinkin abt the things i had done that day, smtye, tears wlf flow out uncontrolled. i hate the way ppl are treatin me, when i started bein TOO hyper, i admit i am annoyin what so ever. i am tired. from all the forceful smiles, my jokes. my atuuide. it just make me feel so childish, stupid. so annoyin. sometimes, i jus hate myself. someday, i might jus die out. who knows. TIRED.