the girl is the brown blouse is my cousin! (: hahahs! (:
Okays, today school was normal. but idk why i hate it. nv show any attuide what so ever, thought no one would figured out what happen, turned out laylin, joan and jiahui noticed it. manage to hide from the people around me in class and clique. din go recess, had to complete my work, din exactly finish it, becox i was at 3o6. then after that, completed it at home. texted peijun. long time since we actually text each other continuously. hahas.
i cried, and i cnt believe it. cox it is like soo damn long since i cried. i duno why, but the feeling is so great. i duno why am i sad, why am i so unhappy. i duno who to approach.i dun wan to be sad. everytime i tried to be happy and acting joyful in front of people. i wld ask myself . Am i REALLY happy? am i REALLY enjoying myself? i duno. i duno what went wrong, which wire of me went wrong. (yokehuei, if eu see this, dun nid waste msg text me , i wont reply. thanks for the concern anyway. (: but jus leave me alone for today... i nid to reflect on myself, the things i do. my REAl happiness. my true self.. )people take me for granted. like i am their what-so-ever everytime. am i realli that independence? or eu guys jus treat me like nobody's business.ask eurself, am i really that happy when eu see my smile? or eu jus take it for granted that i still bothers to care for eu? frankly speakin, i hate it though.