I thought of it much though... Life, my aims, my goals, what i want...
Maybe it jux too young to think now or jux nice. who knows.
I am finalli "lettin myself out."
Friday's break, let me think alot..
WHY? eu might ask. I oso duno. the fact is people take me for granted though, like i am someone who doesn't get sad. doesn't have feelings. I HAVE ALL THOSE! I AM OSO A HUAMN BEING! why are people treatin me like i am not a human. I DO get sad when people are sad, I DO get sad when people say something that hurts me. I DO have EMOTIONS! but who will understand?People always thought me as a cheerful, easy-going girl. I am. YES! HOWEVER, i got my own emotions. i am NOT emotionless. i noe what is sad. i only purposely hide it away. If eu duno me well, eu wont noe. or else eu will notice my faked smile in front of people. i dun like people to get sad. when i am sad, i dun wish to throw out my stuffs and made it a burden on people. i dun wan them to get so damn stress and sad. some may even try to solve it. but no, i dun want to do that. I only want people to be happy NOT SAD. why cant they jux understand? i am oso a noraml human which oso have feelings.
my grades, only left a month away to EOY. yea, and eu are askin me why am i postin, too bad. i nid rest, i am not a robot. fail fail fail, is what i get in maths. 9 months already, why cant i jux be like other people, score in maths, smae class, same teacher. why can they score so high and me? always takin the bottom parts. i dun understand wht went wrong, i noe the formula! i noe how to apply but my answers are jux wrong, but is not careless mistakes. i realli duno. i feel a useless idiot. i even had tuitions, that is what some of friends said when they asked for my marks. But do they noe how hurt it is? They thought that i got tuition i will pass? then why am i spendin my weekends on extra tuitions, jus to pass my maths? i worked so hard man. do the 10 years series, but i still fail overall. FAILED! i noe i cnt give up. But what is the point of tellin me not to give up when i dun wan to give up? Maths used to be my strongest subject, always scorin an A. ALWAYS! A1s, A2s. NEVER DROPPED! and now? F9/E8/D7. i duno even get a pass. see how much the difference is? try puttin in my shoes. feel it eurself. Some people dun care. some people get high grades complain some much (not sayin anyone, jux example)... i duno if i can handle it.
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moodless right now.. text me instead...
Dont ever be sad about what you had lost but be happy about what you have now and will have in the future. Everything in life is a blessing or can be blessing in disguise. Be positive and everything will turn out just fine. Happiness doesn't depend on what happens outside of you, but on the inside of you.