Well before that, chinese paper 2 was damn sucky arh! Wth! Do until i *faint. No la, haha! (: paper 1 and 3 still okay lah. I like wan the papers back leh. Hha. Lol. But mus wait until 13 may! Haix... I am pretty angry after the second paper! Sorry to those who seen my teared and thanks! (: i noe i shouldnt everyone was one the same boat... Esp eu... Sorry dude! (: after that, walked home with Charles and Yokehuei. Then studied chem! YAY! haha! Lol! Went tuition, SUPER FUN CAN~ Hahas, Joontong admitted he wore pink, but denied it was pink but it was reddish-pink! Hahas~ funny. Dine out wif him and bro. While my bro play his PSP, Joontong and I talked alot about things. Haha! What did we say? *Secrets* LOL! jus now, he told me abt Lizards. Like eeew. Saw Clarissa(?), she gv us a shock! Haha! Hi there! Right... Then reached home at 9 plus~ bathed! Then onlined. T.T , my msg exploded, thanks to SOMEONE.
Speakin abt that someone, well, i, too, got alot to say. Not jus eu, and I THOUGHT eu noe that i will surely post back. So eu wanna say it on the net, fine wif me..
I THOUGHT I THOUGHT I THOUGHT. (: All was frm MY point of view. did i ever say, Pj say she dun care? And eu are tellin me that eu NV SAID I DUN WAN TO CARE ANYMORE? Well said, well said. Angry? Now eu feel the anger? What abt when eu neglected us( zihui,meihui,yokehuei,me) i bet eu dun even noe okays, thats why eu said eu dun even noe what eu did. Whats wrong wif me? Prefectly fine? My body parts are still intact and i aint sufferin frm any illness, jus so eu noe. Its useless? Yeah, how dumb of me to wan to stop these thing, should have jus let it continue? Great job, izit ? Sendin msg of 8 plus worthed msg, even though i noe it will exceed my limit, i still press the sent button. Even though i knew how much i have to pay wif my own money, i took the courage and time to send to eu. My msg is contridictin? If eu realli noe me, like eu say eu treated me like a REAL friend, eu shld have noe that i am NOT GOOD in expressin myself. Din eu asked me on msn? I explained? Or did eu jus simply heck care. Eu are tryin to imply that eu cared abt our friendship? Well done, eu have done it, AFTER CCA. great, i din allow eu guys to step into my heart? Did eu even try? Did eu even ask? Did eu even care or bother? Or jus sit there and wait for me to come to eu? Like a dog. I bet eu are jus waitin. I nv let people hv a chance to step into my heart, how come people can do it? Me findin excuses? It takes one to say one uh. I guess eu are jus tryin to say that i am not like meihui who come and find eu, eu are jus blamin me? Me selfish? Me attitude? Yeah, i noe my attitude sucks sometimes. Eu are disgusted and irritated by my actions? Oh, what abt eu when eu are in a bad mood? Give people that face and like everyone owes eu a livin. Get closer to someone else then neglected eur other friends? She tok to eu and eu din even reply to her, she waited for eu to go history and treat it as she is surpose to do it?! Pls lah, eu nv give people attitude meh? When ppl tok to eu, eu din even bother to reply. Disgusted? I nv say anythin for the past one year le okay. Everytime is always us bein left out, us. Tried to blend in, and what do we get? 'eu cnt noe one' eu wan whisper into other people's ear dun do it so openly if there is another person there, do eu noe how that person feels? Eu nv told us of infact ME abt eur things too, maybe yes, only that that, when I CALLED eu huh. Yes, that tye. I tok to eu and yea, afterthat, no more. Eu din neglect us? Well i have a few examples, abt that tye when we were doin Flag day? We said have lunch together. Yeah, eu said eu waitin for Grace, yeah, we waited, eu nv tell us abt tokin to Miss Chew, FYI, eu shld noe that zihui's aunt will scold her de, well, we(yh,mh, zh and i) waited outside the bloody staffroom for hw long? Eu said sry arh, make eu wait so long, okay, nvm, walked out of sch. Then? We tried to tok to eu, then?? Nth, eu jus kip on tokin abt the class thing, yeah, since we are in different class, we cnt help much. We jus kip quiet. AND, eu all were walkin so slowly, dun eu noe how hungry we were?eu din even say,' eu all go first or eu all hungry mah?' things like that, well nvm, i dun realli care abt whether eu asked or not, i am not so petty uh. Do eu noe why yokehuei left early? Becos she was pissed. I think zihui too. Meihui, being nice decided to follow eu guys. And? Did eu include her in eur conversation? I duno. I was pissed so i went wif Michelle, then what do i get? ' oh, she is closer wif them?' HELLO? THE TIME I WASTED WAITIN FOR EU, I DIN EVEN SAY A SINGLE WORD AND UNTIL MRT STATION EU STILL SAY EU DUNO WHAT TO EAT. fine. I walked off. Eu din noe. No, eu dint. And abt meihui, i will not get angry abt her showin eu my tweets, so? Whats the big deal? Twitter is public and soon eu will eventualli noe de wht. Why shld i hide it? I oso nv block it or what, see then see lah, there is nothin to be angry abt. Eu said i changed? Cos eu duno me at all. Yeah, i have changed from sec2 to sec3. And yeah, i am not so petty or whatsoever. I wont get angry because of TWITTER? eu said eu cried for nights?sry abt that. Whatever i said, eu dun believe, then what hurts me? Eu din even noe how hurt i was or we were and eu count eurself how many times have eu trusted me? Well, eu nv knew how upset i was last year becox of eu. And eu dun even noe what the hell eu did. My current friends? Oh i simply jus love them ttm! Even though MAYBE they dun like me. But why would they? Jealous? Like i care? They are ones who taught me how to become strong again whenever eu add salt to my wounds? So eu only noe eu get hurt. Not others around eu. How great can that be.. I am selfish? Think abt eurself, yeah, i am selfish becox i dun wan to share some of my things cox its personal, eu shld noe like eu said eu treated me like a REAL friend, that when i want to say i will say de. Dun eu noe by now? Oh? I am double-sided? How abt eu? Pretend to be friends and then backstab people? Did i even say anythin abt eu when eu neglected our existance?did i even mutter a word? And becos i dun respone to eu a month back, its like a big thing. Eu told them that i treated eu like a robot, spare tyre? HAHA, eu are not treatin me as a robot? As a spare tyre? Are we floatin woods on the ocean ? So when eu feel like hangin on to it then hang? If not swim far far away? So how many times eu have backstab me and eu said' i treated u like a real friend' contridictin? Real friends=backstab? Wonderful! People out there, if eu treat eur friends as real friends, backstab them. Isit what eu are tryin to brin across? If eu realli wan to settle this asap, no matter how busy eu are , eu will still try, when i saw eu say other day then tok, i was shocked and it shows me how eu treated me as? REAL friend, i get it. So i admit i am sensitive towards the ' when will eu stop mixin wif them?' thing, so? Does it hurt to be sensitive? I bet eu duni how sensitive i am. And i din even say i am clever or what? Which part of my sms did i state that i am clever that i have found out eu are talkin abt me? abt the' this few years are nothin compared to that one year, so this is how eu feel, i get it' thing? On purpose? Oic, what for purosely put for me to see? When eu din even treat me as a friend, someone eu value? Yeah, eu jus sit there and EXPECT us to come and look for eu, tok to eu, why isit always us but not eu ? So i have to come and look for eu in order to let eu treat me as friend? Or eu jus simply see me then shout my name? Did eu ever come and find us? NO! is always the opposite. And that was aperiod of time when eu dun wan go recess, then? Expected us to go over? Who is the selfish one? Me? I think meihui is bein very kind already huh, although she din say it. She felt this way too last year but idk now. So what are eu goin to say now?' becox of such LITTLE THINGS, kimberly is angry at me, thanks for being frank.' and eu nv called us out to study okay? Until zihui found out and eu still say how eu noe de? Whoah! Although, me and zihui and yokehuei cant often go out, eu could at least ask what. We actualli can go out sometimez. Eu din realise or maybe eu did that i have been goin out to study wif yokehuei , my friends or go out wif them uh? Eu din even asked and eu jus simply thought that oh, we cnt go out so why bother askin? Realise that now? Too late.
Yeah, i looked forward to eur arguement against my post. Cox not only are eu angry but me too and eu said until like its a big time for neglectin eu for past few weeks when eu eurself did it to us in a year.
Well, that is what happen recently, dun ask me what happen. I will not say, i hope eu people will respect my decision?cox isy own prob! (: thanks for the continuous support.
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Bbyee~
Hey, jiayous, its only chi MYE, eu still gt one month! (;