Whats wrong?

Background music : Hero (m.c.)

I duno whats wrong wif me.seriously.. I tried to be happy, everythin, i tried my best. I duno if my worst fear is confirmed.. What if mr lee was right abt mrs singh? How? What am i suppose to do? Face the reality? I dun wan to be labelled as 'm.i' eu noe. I think no one does. People think that i am lyin abt bein sad all these but they always see me laughin, but the truth is, i smile and laugh to hide my tears. I dun wan to continue bein like this. Its drainin my energy away. Alot of my energy away. And i aam startin to feel that its gettin worst.. I dun wan to go to the c. I am afraid. But i am more afraid that through all these, i will not be able to perform well in my studies. mid year is exactly one week. And i have all these things and to add on, i am still in the mist of breakin down. I am afraid that this fall is so strong that i have no strength to carry myself up... I used to hurt myself by s.And it feels so numb and the pain goes away. Isit right for me to try it again? I duno. Cox i realli duno whats the hell wrong wif me. I am like consistently givin prob to people esp D... And now mre people who actualli offered to help me are bein dragged down the water. I think tht it is a serious mistake in noein me, i aint a good friend or what.. I am so damn emotional, every post is alnost the same... I kip repeatin myself. I am totalli stressed out. Totalli. Sometimes i jus wish i flunk myself out the W. Maybe i will go back to S.idk.. I duno what to do.

I feel so depressed... I wish i have a penknife now..